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Looking in the Mirror

I’ll keep this one short cause I can’t really keep my thoughts together today.

Today I just realized that I don’t like myself. Actually, I hate who I am.

I think in order for me to do anything in life I have to figure out how I can handle who I am first. I cant depend on everyone. I can’t be so easy to fall for someone. I’m head over heels for someone who doesn’t understand me. It doesn’t help that I don’t understand me either.

This weekend away from everything might help. I’m also planning a trip away with just my Melon and I.

No phone. No Facebook. No blog. Just her and I.

I need to figure out what type of person I am. I don’t know where the lines are any more. I don’t know how to grasp my emotions the way everyone says I should. I don’t know what people see in me, whats so great about me, and especially why people love who I am.

I lead life with my emotions and not with my head.

Its not fair and definitely not healthy for me to throw myself at people and only be 50% charged in life. I need to fill the other half with what drives me from me and not from someone else.

It’s not going to be easy, but I need to start somewhere.

Wish me luck…





This entry was posted in: Life


I am just the weirdest, friendliest, and possibly even the most annoying person you will ever meet. No one can quite understand me. I try to convince people that I am just an every day average guy but my past life events have not backed me up on that claim. Where life has taken me is where very few have experienced. My ultimate goal here is to share to people that, yes, life can be hard. It will literally push you to the edge of the earth and laugh in your face. I want to let people know that they are not alone. No matter what class, race, or age we all have problems and our successes. My actual job is to literally talk to people. I love my job so much that I started this blog to share to the world my voice, experiences, and opinions about life and its crazy ride that we are all stuck on. If you have anything you want to share or have me write about please feel free to contact me :)

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