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Hello strangers. I owe an apology for my absence (yet again) and obviously there is need for explaining for all this.

Ever since my awesome night with my sweetheart I have been going through some rough times. Personal and work life to be exact. So I guess I’ll start with Monday…

Monday I go into work. Everything is all fine and wonderful. Feeling energized from hanging out with my girl and wondering when I will see her again. I talk and hang out with the usual crowd at work.

Work was going like how it usually does on a good day. Nothing was really happening. So, naturally, when nothing happens all of us gather in one room and hang out. We all talk, laugh, and just complain about the same thing.

Then enters our department Major. He comes in to our little hang out area and just stands there. We were all way into whatever conversation we were having. He finally chimes in and asks us what we were all doing. Obviously we were caught red handed and really said whatever came to mind at first. Apparently that wasn’t the answer he wanted to hear. He said his goodbye (all snarly like) and left. We all thought it was a little weird that he just stood there watching us, but at the same time we didn’t really care… Little did we know we really should have…

The very next day my Lieutenant comes up to every single one of us that were hanging out in our little room. Apparently it was so “crucial” to explain to all of us that we were not to hang out with each other. Word was that the Major even said “if they have time to be sociable on the job, I’ll make sure they’ll be even more sociable in the unemployment line” (Not a hostile work environment at all).

Oh! And to make matters worse he also told me about a nasty rumor going around about me!

Only a few people know so I will keep it at that, but the thing that bothers me is that the rumor really takes a sucker punch at my professionalism and work relations to an all new low. I really hate how people take nasty shots at me just to try and climb up the ladder. Some people say it might be out of jealousy or just hate because of my great reputation at work.

So with all that going on at work I just wanted a few days away from the world since the world was attempting to just spit me out. I sat on my couch for literally days playing video games. I just wanted to escape and feel like I don’t exist to society for a while which even meant not being on here.

I wanted to work on my book, I wanted to go out for a run, I wanted to update my blog. I just couldn’t find it in me to want to do any of that. Three things were in my mind. Make sure I eat, play video games, and tell my sweetheart how much I miss and love her. That was it. Nothing else.

Melon was nice enough to know that I didn’t really want much to do so she kindly sat at my feet during my episodes of escape. On the plus side I got really far in whatever video game I chose to play that day.

Thankfully not everything was terrible. I knew that my sweetheart was working so I took the patrol car all the way to her work. I parked the car on the sidewalk (who was going to stop me?) and walked inside. I had a mission. I walked in with my head up high, back straight, and chest out. I knew where she was at and dived right in. I then walked right up to her desk.

At almost an instant (and at the exact same time) I saw her eyes just light up, her face turning red, and her smile just bursting out. Somehow my stance seemed to find some sort of weakness (probably the way she looked at me) and I instantly became a little shaky, really sweaty, and nervous. I pulled out an envelope I was keeping under my bullet proof vest and handed it to her. I then told her that this was part 1 of 3 of her Christmas gifts.

As quick as I came, I left. Boom. In and out. Didn’t want to overstay my welcome since our department was undergoing heavy observation.

With how the week was going I at least wanted some happiness while I was working. I miss working with her…

Back on track. So she loved my gift! I told her the meaning behind what was inside. It wasn’t anything big, but it was at the same time. It was an envelope that had a card that said “I Less Than Three You” with the “<3” symbol above it. I forget what I wrote on the card but what was also inside was a pair of black dog tags (with my info on it).

I gave her the long version of the meaning behind it, but for you guys you get the short version (sorry!). Basically it was a reminder that I think about her all the time. Every day I appreciate her existence in my life. I wanted her to know that I always think about her and that she is the heart and soul behind every bit of creative idea that I have. She might of not thought of any of my idea’s for me, but she definitely motivates me to execute the creative ideas I have (I wouldn’t have this blog if it wasn’t for her).

Part 2 of 3 is coming. I only hope that it arrives in time. I promised her that each part will come every week. So part 1 was last week, part 2 is next week, and the final part of the gifts will be on New Years Eve. Oh, which by the way, my sweetheart will be my New Years kiss. She will be my New Years kiss. I want to start the year with someone who is pretty much the world to me. Hell, she is my world. I want something meaningful.

We talk so much about our future together. I have so much hope and happiness for whatever comes our way. As long as I’m with her I might as well be Superman. I feel like I can do anything and I will always be there to save her when she needs me.

Hopefully this coming week I can finally collect all my thoughts and channel my feelings into something productive and away from the couch. I really need to stay away from that thing.