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Bummed Out

Well today I found out the city I was applying for a firefighting position did not select me to move onto the next step. I kind of figured that out of hundreds of people for only fifteen spots the selection process would be rigorous. I was right.

But I wont let it completely bum me out. I still have a job and a good one at that. It may not be with the command staff that I like, but they seem to know how to run things since we keep getting funding from somewhere. I may just have to man up and accept where I’m at right now.

But for now I have to think about my happiness and not my professional future. I have an envelope in my bedroom with the word “Korea” on it. That is my trip to Korea money envelope. I am devoting a bit of my paycheck to that fund so that my girlfriend and I can have the vacation of a life time. I also have a few Korean language courses.


Does anyone else find it kind of odd that a Korean guy, me, has to buy a language course to speak the language of my people? Just me? Well… weird…

I am really excited for the trip though. It seems like the trip is the most exciting thing ever. I mean more exciting than signing up for the Marines, going to Japan when I was in high school, going to Morocco for the Marines, or any family vacation trip I’ve ever done. I just never had the opportunity to go on a trip to a destination that I got to pick with someone else. I’ve always just been going to where someone had already picked for me. Being able to sit down with someone and discuss where to go and planning it all out is the most exciting thing ever.

Sometimes I have trouble sleeping just thinking about it. I mean almost two weeks with the most important person in the world in a different country. What could possibly top that?

I mean I wish that we could just stay there for months together in a country side setting, but we both have jobs and other obligations that take over. Some day we will.

All I know is that not being selected for a job is just not really putting me in a mood of writing. I mean I know exactly how I’m feeling but it just doesn’t form any words other than “bleh”. I just feel defeated yet relieved at the same time. I don’t have to worry about going onto another step or trying to figure out an entire new job. I just have to completely focus on what I have going on.

Tomorrow I should have something more to say. But for now I will be signing off and sitting around the house watching Netflix drinking coffee.

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I am just the weirdest, friendliest, and possibly even the most annoying person you will ever meet. No one can quite understand me. I try to convince people that I am just an every day average guy but my past life events have not backed me up on that claim. Where life has taken me is where very few have experienced. My ultimate goal here is to share to people that, yes, life can be hard. It will literally push you to the edge of the earth and laugh in your face. I want to let people know that they are not alone. No matter what class, race, or age we all have problems and our successes. My actual job is to literally talk to people. I love my job so much that I started this blog to share to the world my voice, experiences, and opinions about life and its crazy ride that we are all stuck on. If you have anything you want to share or have me write about please feel free to contact me :)

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