Feel The Pain

So I have been hitting the gym more and more often since I parted ways with my friend. Every day my arms get that nice little stretching pain you get after a great workout. I look in the mirror and I get happier and more satisfied each time. Everything is starting to look more cut. Everything is starting to get more pumped. I’ve even lost about twelve pounds this month.

I think now that I am more focused on me I can finally get what I want. I want a better body. I want to be better at my job. I want better things to put around my house. I’ve been doing more online shopping. Doing more runs. Doing more of everything that makes me happy.

It’s been a lot of self work lately. I just look around my place and realize what needs to be done. I feel like this isn’t even a home anymore because nothing is mine. Almost everything I own is from someone else. The computer desk I found, the couch is my ex’s, and my storage bins belong to another ex. I think I need to start filling my place with my own furniture. I finally have the job to get the money to do it. Sitting on a few hundred dollars and I was stupidly looking at funny gadgets you can plug into you’re computer.

But I think the biggest step for me to take isn’t just fixing the physical portion of my body. Most people that I know said I look great physically. I don’t need to work on it anymore. I guess what I need to work on is making my place my own home. I need a home. I haven’t had a home in years. I have a place where I watch TV, shower, and sleep but never really a place to call home. I need that filling portion in life in order for me to be completely satisfied.

So I think I’ll take a trip to an IKEA this weekend. Maybe look around and see what nice things I can get.

In other news… I got another workout session today with my friend and his intern. My arms are already dead from working with a Bulgarian Bag the other day. If you don’t know what that is here’s the link to see the work outs.

I think today the intern might want to do some cardio. Thank god. I was hoping for a leg day, ab day, or cardio. As long as we can target one of those and then grab lunch after. I think I might finally take her offer. If she asks that is.

But any who. My arms are sore. My chest is hurting. And my brain is drained. I need to get ready for another work out session here soon. I’ll keep you guys posted.

Just know everything is okay for now 🙂

Enjoy the sun.