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Am I In Too Deep?

So the past few days have been… Well there is no other way to put it other than: WEIRD yet AWESOME

I have been still exploring the world of “Online Dating”. I compare it to like… Mayonnaise. If you never tried it how can you tell you wont like it? (did I get it spot on???)

My searches have been… surprising. There have been a few people where I, sadly to admit, just flat out go “… nope…” The worst part of the whole thing is when you see someone that you actually know on the outside world. For example… I have had people that I used to go to high school with and old co workers trying to contact me on it.

Now I have significantly changed since high school. Just imagine a punk rock kiddo with black jeans and a rock band T-shirt and that’s me. We were all there at one point in our lives…

So people have messaged me over and over going “OMG you got so hot since high school! What have you been up to?”

Makes me think back to when these girls didn’t really even give me two seconds of their time back in the day. It’s like a teen movie with the main theme of revenge. Cold shoulder was activated and it has been working real well.

But the girl I first met on there we have been going at it for a decent two weeks now. It’s nice to know that I  don’t have to single myself out to just one person. A few casual dates of going on walks and going to the zoo gets a great idea of who I am with. She obviously has a lot of great goals in the future, but having kids in the next year is not so much in my ballpark.

As much as I would love to be a dad (someday) it’s just not in me to start to settle down, or even talk about it for that matter, especially since I haven’t even scratched the surface in my mid twenties.

A couple of people have given me their phone numbers after many messages and emails passed back and forth. But one thing that was really odd to me kind of surfaced after being on there for a few weeks. A lot of people are single parents (not too surprised since they don’t have the time to “get out there”) and there are a significantly a lot of people who are devoted Christians. I don’t find anything wrong with either one.

The weird issue is that several people (and I mean a lot) have stopped talking to me simply because of my name. Now I’ve heard of people not interested due to job occupation, living conditions, race (as horrible as it is not everyone is into Asians), and family ties… But never really a name.

Really I thought not being with someone, or judging someone, due to a name only existed in moves like “Meet the Fockers”. But when some of the girls have asked me for my full name I just show them a picture of my name tape from work that’s sewn on my uniform. It reads “A. Sin”.

That usually steers the devoted religious good Christians away. Oops. Well sorry my father didn’t have the best name in the world.

Luckily there are a few people out there that share my sense of humor and can actually see who I am rather than what my name is.

I would highly recommend using dating sites but only if you truly do not have the time or great environment to meet people. I used to work in a very female dominant work place so for me, at my old job, it wasn’t hard at all to at least find someone who likes me or that I would like. Working in law enforcement however… A little bit harder to find someone that isn’t committing a crime or in jail for doing one. Doesn’t really sit well with me if you can believe that…

I’ll see where it goes with the first girl that I started dating since making my profile, but I won’t hold my breath on it. I think I’ll just ride it out and see where it goes. I have another date with another girl (first date) coming up this week. I think we are going to the park or something. Just the casual meet and greet stuff. Nothing serious.

But in other news. Work is going swimmingly well with me. Just got word from my sergeant that I might get pulled off training early due to my progress with my reports and attitude towards my job. Always great news to me!

Have a great week everyone!

Wish me luck 🙂



This entry was posted in: Change, Faith, Hope, Life


I am just the weirdest, friendliest, and possibly even the most annoying person you will ever meet. No one can quite understand me. I try to convince people that I am just an every day average guy but my past life events have not backed me up on that claim. Where life has taken me is where very few have experienced. My ultimate goal here is to share to people that, yes, life can be hard. It will literally push you to the edge of the earth and laugh in your face. I want to let people know that they are not alone. No matter what class, race, or age we all have problems and our successes. My actual job is to literally talk to people. I love my job so much that I started this blog to share to the world my voice, experiences, and opinions about life and its crazy ride that we are all stuck on. If you have anything you want to share or have me write about please feel free to contact me :)

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