All posts filed under: Change

The Black Band

Last week was a tough one. Over 7 peace officers were killed on the line of duty. One was executed while pumping gas. What threatening manner did he present? Was he abusing his power? Was he thrashing people of a different race around? Was he shooting at people when he couldn’t gone hand-to-hand? No. He was pumping gas. Shot in the back of the head and fifteen more times. Clear sign of hate and rage. A Trooper in Louisiana stopped to assist what seemed like a motorist in need. What do you think ran through his mind? That he could possibly die? That the person was waiting to ambush him? Without even thinking he was going to assist someone who he thought was in need of assistance not knowing about the persons race, social class, or criminal history. Instead he got repaid with his life being taken with the last words he possibly heard was “You’re lucky you are going to die.” Here in Michigan I had to wear the black band on my badge for …

Am I In Too Deep?

So the past few days have been… Well there is no other way to put it other than: WEIRD yet AWESOME I have been still exploring the world of “Online Dating”. I compare it to like… Mayonnaise. If you never tried it how can you tell you wont like it? (did I get it spot on???) My Match.com searches have been… surprising. There have been a few people where I, sadly to admit, just flat out go “… nope…” The worst part of the whole thing is when you see someone that you actually know on the outside world. For example… I have had people that I used to go to high school with and old co workers trying to contact me on it. Now I have significantly changed since high school. Just imagine a punk rock kiddo with black jeans and a rock band T-shirt and that’s me. We were all there at one point in our lives… So people have messaged me over and over going “OMG you got so hot since high school! …

Online Wonder

So… I know that I wasn’t really suppose to “jump” into things but… Who would I be if I didn’t. Yes I have changed for the greater good. My workouts are going great, my job is taking off very well, and I am finally piecing some things around my townhouse with furniture ideas and other decorative things. But when I was working at the Sheriff Department one of the deputies wouldn’t stop asking why I was still single. He kept going on about how it’s a “big deal” that someone in uniform doesn’t have at least a lady friend to see. I just kept telling him I don’t have the time. He found that very hard to believe since I’m one of the youngest deputies in the whole department so he figured I have more time than I say I do. He suggested, as a joke, that I make at least an online dating profile. I laughed at the idea and said “I don’t have that little of free time. I can at least find someone once …

Feel The Pain

So I have been hitting the gym more and more often since I parted ways with my friend. Every day my arms get that nice little stretching pain you get after a great workout. I look in the mirror and I get happier and more satisfied each time. Everything is starting to look more cut. Everything is starting to get more pumped. I’ve even lost about twelve pounds this month. I think now that I am more focused on me I can finally get what I want. I want a better body. I want to be better at my job. I want better things to put around my house. I’ve been doing more online shopping. Doing more runs. Doing more of everything that makes me happy. It’s been a lot of self work lately. I just look around my place and realize what needs to be done. I feel like this isn’t even a home anymore because nothing is mine. Almost everything I own is from someone else. The computer desk I found, the couch …