All posts tagged: Deep thoughts

The Toughest Days Are Always Yesterday

Well, it’s a new day. Woke up at 4am on a couch that I may never see again in a place that will be all too soon just be a memory. I slowly got up from the couch, grabbed a cup from a box, got some water, and off to start my day. I just kept remembering the conversation I had with my mother. Hearing her cry over the phone after telling her that there was nothing I could do to save any of her expensive furniture was a bit overwhelming for me, but obviously it had to be done. I called her after being so flustered not being able to get a truck or a storage place for her. I sat at the dining room table, with all of the boxes sitting around me, and just stared at my phone. What was I going to say to her? Was I going to tell her that I tried and failed? Was I going to tell her all of her things will be in a dumpster …

Bounce Back

So I feel like I owe an explanation with everything that’s been going on. Lately things haven’t gone my way and my disappearance has gotten everyone wondering where in the heck have I been on here. Well… Here it all is. I think with losing some credibility at work due to bad rumors and jealousy it has really brought me down. Work was usually my escape from anything troubling since work has no bills, love life, or family issues. It was just work. A place where I could focus on my job and build great connections between people to continue on with my success. Unfortunately for me people decided to see how well I was progressing and decided to make nasty statements about me to my command staff. Things like all I do is talk to women (in a predominately female work environment), for some reason building an odd interest in a co worker (my best friend), and started to say that I was becoming too negative to trust. So like rational and sensible person …

She Said It!

To start off with… Friday she said she loves me! I feel like I can walk on water, turn it into wine, and drink the living hell out of it! I’ve been a bit busy with things going on at work. I have had the most terrible week anyone could ever have. Monday I got stripped of everything that I worked for. I had a meeting with a few of my Lieutenants. They discussed about certain nasty rumors that they decided to take it as the truth over my word. They said as soon as I start to act like an adult and start to care about my job they won’t see it fit to promote me into anything better. So I guess I am a childish liar who does nothing but flirts with people and don’t actually do my job. It’s sad that the ones who do their job, put so much effort into it, and doesn’t brag or gloat about how good of a job they do are the ones who get hit …

Second Chances

Wow… I just realized it has been a long time since I last made a post. I think I feel like everything is starting to either come together finally or that I have just felt really lazy the past couple of days. I’m pretty sure it’s the lazy part. My Marine Drill weekend was last weekend. It was the same as usual. Wondering when I will get out of the Marines, running around looking important, and hearing the conversation from other Marines about what girls they’ve been with the past few weeks we have had off. Sunday night I went to my girl’s apartment after my drill. I told her about all the things that they talked about. Her jaw almost dropped to the floor about all of the things I told her. My only response was “Eh, Marines. Why do you think I feel like I don’t fit in too well with them?” Monday I had to take a day off of work. I got a phone call from my sister Sunday night. I …