All posts tagged: Life Goals

I Finally Made It… But At What Cost?

It has been a very long time since I have last given this any attention at all. I feel as if I owe everyone an explanation as to what the heck I have been up to that caused me to take an unannounced “hiatus” from all of this. As the picture above shows I finally got the job I’ve always wanted. Well… Not exactly but really close! I will be working as a County Deputy in my state soon. I can’t wait to exchange the “Police Authority” uniform for an actual deputy uniform. Everyone always told me “now is not the time to be a cop. Not with all the race hating accusations of law enforcement officers these days”. I’ve heard that from friends, retired, and current law enforcement officers. What do I have to say to that? So what…  I know who I am. I know what kind of person I can be. I know where the limits of enforcement and criminal are. I just remember how I got the final word of my employment with …

Life Journey To Something New

I’ve been super duper neglectful of this blog. I know that people have been waiting patiently (or have lost patience) for me to write something on here. Even if it’s just a paragraph explaining why I’m gone. Hopefully this long (maybe long) post will explain most of it. I’ve been on a “Life Searching” moment. Trying to find some reason for everyday to exist. I don’t know why but lately I’ve been kind of moping to myself about how life is just slowly wasting away to our ultimate fate and I am doing nothing about it. I just sit on the couch and just slowly watch time go by. I wake up then just go to bed with no substance in the middle during the day. One day it actually got so bad I just got up and went to work to work on a training tool we have. I think it all finally hit a climax on April Fool’s day. Speaking of which… Girls… Never EVER joke about being pregnant with your man. Worst heart stopping …

Maybe A Fresh Start

The past couple of weeks haven’t been so good. I’m not going to lie, relationship wise could be a lot better. That being said a lot of good has happened since focusing on other parts of my life. Not to repeat a lot of what I said, but the biggest part is that I passed my exams for the potential new job opportunity. A lot of things have been falling apart. Most of it I wish it never did. I guess all I can do now is hope that for everything that has ended something new and better can start in its place. Over the course of the weekend my mind has literally become a blank slate so… sorry folks! Even though a lot has happened it’s just been a lot to process and figure it all out. Sometimes big life changing events blow you away… Not much else for me to say at the moment.

Thinking, Writing, And Running

So I was away for a bit getting things ready for a deputy position for the local correctional facility here in my city. I felt that I needed to spread my wings (cliche) and take off towards a newer and better opportunity. The drive to the emergency response training center was a long one. 2.5 hours to be exact. So I got up before the birds did and I was in my car heading out there. My stomach was upside down and my nerves were getting the best of me. I don’t know what I was so nervous about since I took the time to study and physically train for what was going to happen. I was cruising down the highway with one hand on the steering wheel and the other gripping an energy drink. I felt that I needed to be more alert and awake to do the written exam. I finally get there, after hours of driving, and I walk into the building. I see signs posted of where I needed to go. …