All posts tagged: Life

Starting Off Fresh

I got my fresh start on Monday. My sweetheart came over and congratulated me on all of my success that has been going on lately. I really needed it. I think more importantly I needed her. After all of the great things that I’ve accomplished I was always missing something. I told her that I wished she could have came to the fire house and witness me swearing in the Air Force (but at the same time they kind of dropped the ball on me with that one… I didn’t expect getting sworn in that day).  I told her that I passed my exam for the potential job opportunity. And above all else I got out of the Marines. So I really did get a fresh start. Made some promises, future goals, and a better idea of where my life should be heading instead of wondering where it will be. I mean even if I don’t get the potential job I will still have my fire fighting career to look forward to in the military. …

Maybe A Fresh Start

The past couple of weeks haven’t been so good. I’m not going to lie, relationship wise could be a lot better. That being said a lot of good has happened since focusing on other parts of my life. Not to repeat a lot of what I said, but the biggest part is that I passed my exams for the potential new job opportunity. A lot of things have been falling apart. Most of it I wish it never did. I guess all I can do now is hope that for everything that has ended something new and better can start in its place. Over the course of the weekend my mind has literally become a blank slate so… sorry folks! Even though a lot has happened it’s just been a lot to process and figure it all out. Sometimes big life changing events blow you away… Not much else for me to say at the moment.

Rebuild/Renew/Rethink

Today is a new day! The sun is shining, its almost at subzero temps, and I have pretty much the entire day to myself. When I woke up today, after another night out with friends, I woke up feeling refreshed. Like if anything were to just disappear from my life right now I would feel okay about it. I think after talking last night about all of my feelings, thoughts, and recent events going on, my friends have agreed on one thing: I’ve gone through so much in the past month for a person my age. But things have been going so much better for me lately. My mom is now living with her husband, my sister is moving, and my job is now putting me on leads for certain projects. I’m excelling at almost everything I put my mind to because now that the clouds have gone away I can be more clear about my thoughts. The only thing left to tackle is everything personal. And I think the biggest question is “Am I …

Be Like Water, Shine Like Gold

So I haven’t been myself lately. I had to learn to do the unthinkable… I had to separate myself from the people I love the most. Just for now, not permanently. I couldn’t let them see me like this. I was so flustered, so angry, and so upset with everything going on. The smallest issue seemed to be the biggest problem in the world. I couldn’t think straight and I became exactly what I feared. So I had to tell people that I did not want to talk to them for a while. The last thing I want people to do is to hate me . Hate me for being overwhelmed of everything going on. Usually I’m a really sociable person so this whole ‘alone time’ is still pretty difficult. I would text someone here and there and be real short about it. Really my focus was getting my moms stuff out of her place so that I can move onto the next problem. It’s like regardless of who I am with, my girl, my …