All posts tagged: Life

The Toughest Days Are Always Yesterday

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Well, it’s a new day. Woke up at 4am on a couch that I may never see again in a place that will be all too soon just be a memory. I slowly got up from the couch, grabbed a cup from a box, got some water, and off to start my day. I just kept remembering the conversation I had with my mother. Hearing her cry over the phone after telling her that there was nothing I could do to save any of her expensive furniture was a bit overwhelming for me, but obviously it had to be done. I called her after being so flustered not being able to get a truck or a storage place for her. I sat at the dining room table, with all of the boxes sitting around me, and just stared at my phone. What was I going to say to her? Was I going to tell her that I tried and failed? Was I going to tell her all of her things will be in a dumpster …

Reality of Denial

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Today I woke up around 1am. I sat in my bed looking at the phone. I was staring into what my mom had texted me. I had to really think about what is going on with my current situation. Was I really ready for anything coming my way? Or was I just using the whole “New Year” concept as thinking it really was a fresh start? This afternoon I have to move all of my mothers things out of her soon-to-be evicted town home while she is half a world away living it up with her new husband or whatever he is. The only person coming to help is my sister which worries me. I feel like she ran to Korea to escape all of her problems and left it for me to clean up. Yesterday when I was there I was all alone packing away. At first it seemed pretty straight forward. Pack things that need to be taken to storage and figure out what can be left behind that has almost no value …

Wonderful Night

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Last night was one of the best nights I’ve had in a very long time. Of course it was spent with my sweetheart. She came over around 7 PM. I made her dinner, just a simple dish nothing too complicated. I’m making a promise to her that once a week I make her dinner to improve my cooking skills. If we are going to live together I want to be able to make her something nice as much as I can. As I was cooking in the kitchen I heard her come in the back door. My dog greeted her like she hasn’t seen her in forever. I don’t even remember if I said hello before I kissed her. God it felt like forever ago I got a kiss from her. As soon as I got done making dinner I set up the table for us to eat. It had been almost exactly a week since we last saw each other. She mentioned that it felt like an eternity not seeing me for that long. …

Second Chances

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Wow… I just realized it has been a long time since I last made a post. I think I feel like everything is starting to either come together finally or that I have just felt really lazy the past couple of days. I’m pretty sure it’s the lazy part. My Marine Drill weekend was last weekend. It was the same as usual. Wondering when I will get out of the Marines, running around looking important, and hearing the conversation from other Marines about what girls they’ve been with the past few weeks we have had off. Sunday night I went to my girl’s apartment after my drill. I told her about all the things that they talked about. Her jaw almost dropped to the floor about all of the things I told her. My only response was “Eh, Marines. Why do you think I feel like I don’t fit in too well with them?” Monday I had to take a day off of work. I got a phone call from my sister Sunday night. I …