All posts tagged: Reality

The Black Band

Last week was a tough one. Over 7 peace officers were killed on the line of duty. One was executed while pumping gas. What threatening manner did he present? Was he abusing his power? Was he thrashing people of a different race around? Was he shooting at people when he couldn’t gone hand-to-hand? No. He was pumping gas. Shot in the back of the head and fifteen more times. Clear sign of hate and rage. A Trooper in Louisiana stopped to assist what seemed like a motorist in need. What do you think ran through his mind? That he could possibly die? That the person was waiting to ambush him? Without even thinking he was going to assist someone who he thought was in need of assistance not knowing about the persons race, social class, or criminal history. Instead he got repaid with his life being taken with the last words he possibly heard was “You’re lucky you are going to die.” Here in Michigan I had to wear the black band on my badge for …

Maybe A Fresh Start

The past couple of weeks haven’t been so good. I’m not going to lie, relationship wise could be a lot better. That being said a lot of good has happened since focusing on other parts of my life. Not to repeat a lot of what I said, but the biggest part is that I passed my exams for the potential new job opportunity. A lot of things have been falling apart. Most of it I wish it never did. I guess all I can do now is hope that for everything that has ended something new and better can start in its place. Over the course of the weekend my mind has literally become a blank slate so… sorry folks! Even though a lot has happened it’s just been a lot to process and figure it all out. Sometimes big life changing events blow you away… Not much else for me to say at the moment.

Reality of Denial

Today I woke up around 1am. I sat in my bed looking at the phone. I was staring into what my mom had texted me. I had to really think about what is going on with my current situation. Was I really ready for anything coming my way? Or was I just using the whole “New Year” concept as thinking it really was a fresh start? This afternoon I have to move all of my mothers things out of her soon-to-be evicted town home while she is half a world away living it up with her new husband or whatever he is. The only person coming to help is my sister which worries me. I feel like she ran to Korea to escape all of her problems and left it for me to clean up. Yesterday when I was there I was all alone packing away. At first it seemed pretty straight forward. Pack things that need to be taken to storage and figure out what can be left behind that has almost no value …

Man of Her Dreams

Okay, okay… I have to put this out because this has been stuck in my mind for a couple of days. The other day my sweetheart told me that I am “everyone’s dream” type of guy. She said that my fan base of followers seem to be mostly women which I can see since I write a lot about my feelings, emotions, and love. But what she seems to think about me doesn’t make any sense in my brain at all (probably because of the absence of a brain). She put it this way… “Let me tell you… You are thoughtful, sweet, caring, open-minded and open-hearted, understanding, communicate well, and you go out of your way to make a girl feel loved and wanted. You love animals more than you love people who is almost impossible since you love people so much. You are willing to learn and will chance if necessary. You also have a fantastic body.” Or something close along those lines (yes, the last line was actually said). Yes, all those things, …