All posts tagged: Staying Positive

Rebuild/Renew/Rethink

Today is a new day! The sun is shining, its almost at subzero temps, and I have pretty much the entire day to myself. When I woke up today, after another night out with friends, I woke up feeling refreshed. Like if anything were to just disappear from my life right now I would feel okay about it. I think after talking last night about all of my feelings, thoughts, and recent events going on, my friends have agreed on one thing: I’ve gone through so much in the past month for a person my age. But things have been going so much better for me lately. My mom is now living with her husband, my sister is moving, and my job is now putting me on leads for certain projects. I’m excelling at almost everything I put my mind to because now that the clouds have gone away I can be more clear about my thoughts. The only thing left to tackle is everything personal. And I think the biggest question is “Am I …

Wonderful Night

Last night was one of the best nights I’ve had in a very long time. Of course it was spent with my sweetheart. She came over around 7 PM. I made her dinner, just a simple dish nothing too complicated. I’m making a promise to her that once a week I make her dinner to improve my cooking skills. If we are going to live together I want to be able to make her something nice as much as I can. As I was cooking in the kitchen I heard her come in the back door. My dog greeted her like she hasn’t seen her in forever. I don’t even remember if I said hello before I kissed her. God it felt like forever ago I got a kiss from her. As soon as I got done making dinner I set up the table for us to eat. It had been almost exactly a week since we last saw each other. She mentioned that it felt like an eternity not seeing me for that long. …

Second Chances

Wow… I just realized it has been a long time since I last made a post. I think I feel like everything is starting to either come together finally or that I have just felt really lazy the past couple of days. I’m pretty sure it’s the lazy part. My Marine Drill weekend was last weekend. It was the same as usual. Wondering when I will get out of the Marines, running around looking important, and hearing the conversation from other Marines about what girls they’ve been with the past few weeks we have had off. Sunday night I went to my girl’s apartment after my drill. I told her about all the things that they talked about. Her jaw almost dropped to the floor about all of the things I told her. My only response was “Eh, Marines. Why do you think I feel like I don’t fit in too well with them?” Monday I had to take a day off of work. I got a phone call from my sister Sunday night. I …

Alone

Well, I took a day off from this because… Honestly I don’t really know why. Yesterday was a bad day for me. I woke up wanting to do the normal routine of going to the coffee shop and getting right back to my book. I couldn’t get out of bed. Actually, I fell asleep on the couch. I couldn’t get up from the couch because I didn’t want to start my day. I thought “what’s the point.” When the only interactions of any people I get is at work it pretty much gets me down a little bit. I always think about all of the friends I used to hang out with. My Ex Monster pretty much ruined my entire life. I used to be the very sociable hangs-out-with-everyone type person. Not one day went by where I wasn’t texting, calling, or hanging out with someone. My days are usually spent the same way every day. I wake up alone, walk my dog, and figure out what to do the entire day. I wanted to …