All posts tagged: Strong feelings

Withdrawals

Last night I could barely keep my eyes closed. It seemed like every hour on the hour I was up and checking my phone. I don’t know why. I kept thinking about her last night. This hasn’t happened in months. I used to be able to sleep soundly at night. Just dream about her and wake up somewhat satisfied because it was only a dream and not really her. At least it was about her… So why now? Why at this very moment am I so jolted with energy with that immense feeling of missing someone? I have never been as close to someone before her. She has literally changed everything on how I feel about the people I love. I’m not complaining. I guess I just want more. I want more every second. Is this what real love feels like? Yeah, sure, I take life an hour at a time, but it feels like whenever that hour resets the feeling never goes away. What can I do to overcome this again? I have too …

She Said It!

To start off with… Friday she said she loves me! I feel like I can walk on water, turn it into wine, and drink the living hell out of it! I’ve been a bit busy with things going on at work. I have had the most terrible week anyone could ever have. Monday I got stripped of everything that I worked for. I had a meeting with a few of my Lieutenants. They discussed about certain nasty rumors that they decided to take it as the truth over my word. They said as soon as I start to act like an adult and start to care about my job they won’t see it fit to promote me into anything better. So I guess I am a childish liar who does nothing but flirts with people and don’t actually do my job. It’s sad that the ones who do their job, put so much effort into it, and doesn’t brag or gloat about how good of a job they do are the ones who get hit …

Wonderful Night

Last night was one of the best nights I’ve had in a very long time. Of course it was spent with my sweetheart. She came over around 7 PM. I made her dinner, just a simple dish nothing too complicated. I’m making a promise to her that once a week I make her dinner to improve my cooking skills. If we are going to live together I want to be able to make her something nice as much as I can. As I was cooking in the kitchen I heard her come in the back door. My dog greeted her like she hasn’t seen her in forever. I don’t even remember if I said hello before I kissed her. God it felt like forever ago I got a kiss from her. As soon as I got done making dinner I set up the table for us to eat. It had been almost exactly a week since we last saw each other. She mentioned that it felt like an eternity not seeing me for that long. …

Alone

Well, I took a day off from this because… Honestly I don’t really know why. Yesterday was a bad day for me. I woke up wanting to do the normal routine of going to the coffee shop and getting right back to my book. I couldn’t get out of bed. Actually, I fell asleep on the couch. I couldn’t get up from the couch because I didn’t want to start my day. I thought “what’s the point.” When the only interactions of any people I get is at work it pretty much gets me down a little bit. I always think about all of the friends I used to hang out with. My Ex Monster pretty much ruined my entire life. I used to be the very sociable hangs-out-with-everyone type person. Not one day went by where I wasn’t texting, calling, or hanging out with someone. My days are usually spent the same way every day. I wake up alone, walk my dog, and figure out what to do the entire day. I wanted to …